Sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast.

 This quote come from the Alice in Wonderland books and was said by the White Queen.  It’s so great because it expresses the importance of maintaining a good imagination.  Our imagination gives us the ability to leave the world we live in and create one of our own.  We can do things we have never thought possible, go places we have never been and create things no one else could dream of.  Imagination is so important because it inspires us to think outside the box, making the real lives we live more creative!

I have never considered myself an inspiration to others but the last two weeks, I’ve been told by more people than ever before that I’m inspiring.  I’m finding that it’s both a blessing and a burden to be inspirational!  Knowing that others are looking at you as an example to follow puts a huge weight on your shoulders to not disappoint.  I’ve never been ok letting others down so being called an inspiration has given me a new level of accountability.  I have to keep pushing to succeed so that others will know that bringing your dreams to fruition is always possible.  Never give up!

So in three weeks, we’re starting our funding campaign for our feature film, set to begin shooting in February/March.  A lot of people have told me that this is impossible because I’m doing it without studio money but I know it’s not.  I could not be more excited about the strides that we’re making and the feedback I’m getting on the work I’ve put into it.  I can’t wait to not only star in this film that I, of course with the help of my team, have made but just to know that I CAN MAKE A FILM.  New things are happening in Hollywood and more people than ever are making their own material without the studios.  Believe me, it’s a lot of hard work but it’s also so much more freeing to know that you are in control of the decisions being made.  I am in control of my own career and I don’t need anyone else’s permission to do it!

Well, I think I’ve gone on long enough for today.  Keep an eye out for the campaign starting October 21 on Indiegogo for Beachwood Drive.  I’ll be sharing more with you guys about the pre, production and post processes but for now keep imagining!  Imagine anything and everything you can!  Then let your imagination guide you as you follow your dreams, even if you’re following them alone!

Love love love,

Kimberly

Oh dear, I do wish I hadn't cried so much...

I mean I do because I cry… A LOT!  I just always have.  The funny thing is though, for me crying is a way for me to purge.  Little stresses and worries build up and once a month, lately once a week or even a day, I just cry!  I cry to the point where I’m honestly surprised I’m not suffering from dehydration sometimes.  It’s not that I’m crying because I’m scared or I’m sad, I just have to get everything out of my system!  And afterwards, I feel so refreshed and new and ready to get back to being productive! 

Yes I’m sure there are more appropriate ways of dealing with stress but for me, crying just works.  Although I’m pretty sure my managers at work think there is something seriously wrong with me…oh well.  I’m embracing me for me, right?  If after this many years I haven’t learned to let it go, I don’t know if I ever will.  Plus, let’s be honest, I’m just a dramatic person so there you go.  Anywhere else in this world, people would have me committed but here they just shake their heads and say “she’s an actress.”  J

Now sometimes I do lose focus and feel a little lost and those tears definitely come from a different place.  Those tears usually happen on Sunday mornings…and boy did they ever flow this morning!  Today was one of those God smack days where He reminds you that He’s in control and everything is taken care of.  It was like I was being held and reminded that I am safe.  And I felt so ashamed!  I was ashamed that I could have the fears and the worries that I have because I have always been taken care of before.  Why should I now fear that things would be different?  Like I didn’t trust in Him and it broke my heart that I could be so doubtful of His plan for me.  So yep, I cried, no bawled this morning.

So I guess for those of you who have dealt with my outbursts this week, because there were a lot of them, thank you…and I’m sorry.  I’ll try to control the river from my eyes but it’s unlikely.  Maybe I just need to start putting myself on a cry schedule!  Then it won’t interfere with the rest of my life and freak so many people out.  I guess I do have to maintain some level of professionalism around others!  Until then, I’ll continue being Alice because we know she cried over eeeeeeeeverything!  And I love her!  So go cry it out people because its ok!

Love,

Kimberly

I'm not crazy, my reality is just different than yours.

Thank you Cheshire Cat!  I may have just found my new life slogan.   Ha ha!  Brilliant!  But seriously, I know my blogs are all about rants about how LA is soooooo different from everywhere else in the world but why?  Because it’s a land of dreamers?  It’s a place where thousands of people flock every year because they know they’re different from everyone else and they know that this is the one place where they won’t be judged for being different…

Except that’s exactly what happens here.  We’re all judged.  For the clothes we wear, our hair styles, make-up, cars we drive.  You name it, it’s judgeable and judged.  But the people who really succeed out here, are the ones that DON’T CARE!

I’m serious!  It’s an amazing thing and granted it takes a while to realize it.  I’ve been  called crazy a lot in my life…I mean  a LOT and I’m finally to the point where I realize, I’m actually not.  I’m “crazy” because I’m driven, passionate, really care about others and put their happiness before my own. Wow, I think if there were more people like me, the world wouldn’t be such a bad place.   I mean, true everyone would have to be fans of the Cowboys and Longhorns but at least we would find a successful way to make football season a year round thing!

A friend told me earlier this week that I’m wife material.  I’m not sure how I feel about it considering I’m still single but it definitely makes me feel better knowing that I’m considered respectable.  I mean, ultimately it only matters what you think about yourself but it’s nice to know others are on the same page.  And I can only credit my family for teaching me important values growing up.  But good Lord, could you imagine me married with kids?!!  I did once…imagine it that is.  Oh well, when the time is right. 

For now, I guess I’ll keep dancing to the beat of my own drum because that is ultimately how you survive out here.  Make your own music, your own story and get lost in it.  Eventually others will start listening to it and reading along and realize that your crazy is actually a little bit of genius…  So have fun with it.

Love,

Kimberly 

A Very Happy Unbirthday to Me...

Well it’s definitely not my birthday but this weekend marked the 5^th year anniversary of my move to Los Angeles.  Crazy, right?!  Ah, how time flies.  So there wasn’t exactly an official celebration but I guess I did make quite a splash this weekend.

Not to mention, football is back!  Now before you start going on about my QB, for either teams, let me just say, I DON’T CARE!  My teams are my teams and I love them winning or losing (although I do tend to curse a lot more when they’re losing).  But I still love the game and am so ecstatic that it’s back!

So I feel like this week is going to be a very joyous week, even if I have to make it so.  A lot of good stuff is going on around me, including finally starting to train for my half marathon.  Woo hoo!  But I really hate running so the thought of doing it for 3 hours is just really unnerving. 

But no negativity this week!  It’s my Unbirthday week!   And what’s better than staying productive and being positive about all of the blessings that we have in life?  I know, out here is Los Angeles, it’s hard to stay positive.  Especially when it’s the 6^th and the rent check you wrote on the 1^st still might not go through by the end of the day, and you’re working 8 hours at a job you really can’t stand in order to make the rent…I get it!  But at the end of the day, I’m given the opportunity to do some really cool stuff.

I am so thankful for the life I have, even if it’s not where I planned it to be.  I love my friends, you guys know you are so amazing.  I love that there are so many opportunities available to me to help achieve my success.  And I really love the fact that you all reading are right there with me in all of this! 

So again, I’m off until next week…rehearsing, producing, running and tap dancing (yes, I signed up for tap classes).  So with all the love in my heart, enjoy this week and take it as an opportunity to bless others.  Remember that with our tongues we have the ability to bless or curse others.  So have your own Unbirthday week and go have fun!

Lots of Love,   

Kimberly   

...as long as you walk long enough.

I honestly forgot about this little gem until I was looking over quotes from the Alice in Wonderland books.  If you haven't read them, do it.  They're super short but so full of crazy imagination!  

I love this quote though because it speaks volumes to my life and my career.  Alice asks the Cheshire cat for directions, he asks to where and she says I don't care, prompting his response "then any path will take you there." To this she replies "So long as I get somewhere.
The Cheshire Cat: Oh, you're sure to do that, if only you walk long enough"

Mind blown right?  But it's true.  And I swear to you this is the key to pursuing your dreams.  Sticking with it and being persistent long enough.

This week I had a big audition.  It was the first time I went in for this show and I was excited!  I posted on FB and Twitter but I didn't say what the show was...it was Glee!  But I didn't get the part.  And that's ok!  It was still a big victory because I was called in to make an impression on people and open a door for future roles.  

But too often people see this as a failure.  I finally get called in for that show and I didn't get the part!  My career will never take off!  I'm never going to be anything because no one wants me.  The funny thing is, Hollywood is built on relationships.  That's the long path you have to walk before you can really reap the rewards of success.  Relationships don't become strong overnight but too many people get impatient and give up before they really even give themselves a chance!  I got called in and now I've started a new relationship.  Time to build on it! 

So on that note, I'm going to keep walking down the path I'm on and remember that if I walk long enough, I'm going to get there.  Thanks for following me and I hope you're having fun so far ;)

Oh and happy Labor Day!