That's the reason they're called lessons, because they lessen from day to day.

Well there's less than a week before I go home for Christmas and this week is shaping up to be a very difficult one.  I'll be very honest with you that this post is later than usual because my thoughts and words are very calculated right now.  That being said, I blog to get things out instead of keeping them in so here goes.

The past is a difficult thing to process.  They say hindsight is 20/20 and that's mostly true.  Learning from the past is easy except that sometimes we really don't.  We learn lessons and make mistakes in the past that we hope will not haunt us in the future but they do.  They almost always do.  And on top of that, we think that we learn from the mistakes we make and decide to never hurt the people we love like we may have done in the past but it never fails that we do it again from habit and don't realize it until it's too late.

I'm not a perfect person.  I never have claimed to be and never would.  I love God and follow Jesus but I'm still human.  I try to live my life in a justified way but I make a lot of mistakes.  And I pray to God when I make those mistakes that I can be forgiven and forgive myself and move on.  And even though I learn my lessons of the past, I'm only human when I make mistakes again because the situations look different but at the core are the same.

I really don't know what to say without saying too much other than the past is the past.  And I'm deciding today to let it go.  In the style of Elsa, I am letting it go because I have to.  I am ridding myself of my negative past and starting fresh with a new, positive outlook.  I am forgiving those who have wronged me whether they forgive me or not.  I am letting go of my pride and choosing instead to love because happiness is the ultimate importance.  I can't speak for everyone but I can make this choice for myself.

So I am deciding today to learn from the lessons of my past and not let them lessen from day to day.  Otherwise, what am I really doing instead of going around in a circle that leads to no where but unhappiness.  

See you next week!
Love, Kimberly