How puzzling all these changes are! I'm never sure what I'm going to be, from one minute to another.

OH MY!  What a week it has been!  So much has gone on that I am just bursting with excitement!  I almost feel as though I'm a completely different person!

We are three weeks away from our Kickastarter campaign for Beachwood Drive!  This past weekend was host of an awesome and very productive meeting for our team.  I can't tell you how blessed I am to have so much support in fulfilling my dreams.  Not to mention I am so charged and driven knowing that so many people have faith in me to bring it all t fruition.  I guess it could be intimidating but I'm ready for it all!

If you haven't gone to Facebook and liked us, please DO!  We will have so many updates, events and specials running throughout the campaign that you won't want to miss out on them!  beachwooddrivefilm.com  

Not to mention that my web series Directions from Here will air its first episode NEXT WEEK!  And I'll being filming Guys' Night the week after that.  I promise more details to come but for now, here's the Directions from Here YouTube Channel!  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCCXKh9jMS0BipEqcVo4-tvw

I've also become a Brand Partner for Nerium International.  This surprises me more than anything because I've never considered myself much of a sales person but I guess when you believe in something, it sort of just sells itself.  I'm hoping this will be the answer to my prayers to get out of waiting tables and finally have the freedom to keep producing more and more films!  

I've always said I never liked being a producer but just knowing that I can have the freedom to create work without someone else's permission, take scripts that speak to me, make the dreams and ideas of my friends reality...it's well, exciting!  But it's all a step at a time.  My thoughts are expanding and my horizons are reaching further and further.  I hope you're as excited as I am for things to come!

Lots of love,
Kimberly

Imagination is the only weapon in the war against reality.

I think this quote is so fitting, not only because it's Martin Luther King, Jr day but just because of what's ahead for me personally.  I don't have to give you a history lesson about what Dr. King did but I will say that he had an imagination.  He envisioned a world to come that few others could see or ever wanted to realize as a possibility because their reality was so different and a lot less promising.

He had faith.  Faith to take a step on an unknown path because it only takes one step to begin a journey.  And without that first step, the journey can never happen.  It's inspiring.  Mostly because this year for me is a year of taking chances and stepping out towards new, unexplored paths.  I'm afraid and sure I could let that fear overtake me and rule my judgement but then where would I be?  I would be stuck in the same place that I have been and never get anywhere.  

Or I could turn that fear of failure into excitement to experience what lies ahead.  You don't fail when you fall down, you fail by not getting back up and trying again.  Or you fail by not trying at all!  

I don't fear failure anymore because I have come to the realization that I really have nothing to lose but everything to gain!  So I'll let my imagination guide me because right now I imagine what it will be like on a fully financed film set, working with other actors and a director to creating something awesome.  My imagination is what will win this war against my reality because I know it's a reality that will come true.  I have the ability to make these things happen but it takes that first step and a crazy imagination!  

In 29 days, my team and I will launch a Kickstarter campaign for our film Beachwood Drive.  If you haven't seen it yet, check out our Facebook page and like it!  We'll be posting a lot the next few weeks and sharing images, sketches and a concept trailer.  This film is my imagination exploding into reality and I want you all to be apart of the thrilling ride!

beachwooddrivefilm.com

Love, 

Kimberly

"I don't think..." said Alice. "Then you shouldn't talk" said the Hatter.

Yep, I'm going there this week.  Because for me yesterday was fun!  I say fun with the utmost sarcasm.  My team lost a big playoff game and immediately everyone had their own opinion about the game...and most of them were negative reactions towards my team.

I totally understand, it's all fun and games.  In fact it is a game!  But how often do we get online, throw stuff up on our Facebook and Twitter without really thinking about it first?  Especially about stuff way more serious than a football game?

Take two of the top issues in the world currently trending online: racism in America and the Muslim attack in France.  The out pouring of hate and misunderstanding online over these things is astounding.  People use events like these to excuse the fact that what they have to say is rude, generalized and most of the time not based in any truth.   And just because your say "you're not a racist but..." doesn't excuse everything you're about to say.

I'm not saying everyone should be censored or that no one should have a voice.  Absolutely not!  And I'm definitely not saying that there are not bad people in the world.  But not everyone is the same either.  What I am saying is think about the people that see the things you post.  Think about the friends and family that have been with you and supported you your entire life that you are about to alienate because you didn't think that post was that bad or you didn't know how someone else would take it.

Abraham Lincoln said it best: "Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove all doubt."  I had to unfollow a lot of people this week because of the uninformed, harmful things they were posting that affected me and people I love.  I'd say I'm sorry but I don't have tolerance or room in my life for negative hateful people.  So just think...before it's too late.

"You used to be much more... muchier. You've lost your muchness."

This just about sums it all up.  I've lost my muchness and I have to get it back!

I took a week off from this blog for the New Year because the New Year for me is always my most down time.  I just don't like New Year's.  For me it's always been a time of looking back and focusing on what went wrong or didn't happen in the past and being so sure that the next year will be different.  Idk, for me it's always felt like fake optimism.  

And I don't mean to discredit anyone that loves the New Year and genuinely feels like it brings hope and change.  For some people it does but for me it really is just another day.  But this year, I'm making the New Year something different.  This year I'm making this year the year I get my muchness back.

This year I am changing my outlook on everything.  Lately this industry has torn me down and really made me question what I'm doing to the point where I've let a lot of negative voices control my thoughts and actions.  This has caused me to be unhappy and really bitter, ultimately taking away all of the joy I have in doing what I do.  So I'm choosing, because I can do that, to no longer allow these negative voices in my head.  

The funny thing is, I didn't move to LA to get famous.  I moved here to make my career a reality and work as an actress.  But there's a misconception that if you aren't making big budget films or getting paid a ton of money then you're not really an actor/actress.  I'm an actress because I act.  I get the chance this year to do some really great things and create web series, shorts and films with my friends!  Not because I'm going to get a lot of money for doing them but because that's what I came out here to do!  And I'm doing it!

Just putting it in writing is giving me chills because I have so missed my muchness!  I can't wait to really get this year going and change everything that I've let become of me over the past couple of years.  It's really exciting to know that change is going to happen for the better.  I don't know how it will all turn out but I'm sure it's going to be fun!  Until next week...Happy New Year!

Go get your muchness back too!