"There is a place like no place on earth. A land full of wonder, mystery and danger...

...Some say to survive, you need to be as mad as a hatter.  Which luckily I am."

I'm home!  And this wonderful mystery land is most definitely my parents' house in Texas.  Or even Texas itself!  Yes, everyone from Texas loves Texas and we do all believe that it's the greatest place on earth and definitely the best state.  That is just how proud we are!

I have to say Christmas at home is my favorite time of year.  My mother is amazingly creative and decorates trees all over the house.  This year there are 12 and they are gorgeous!  The walls are covered in golds, blues, greens and silver!  There are nutcrackers, santas, snowmen and yes, nativities all over the place!  My brothers and I joke every year that when we go to sleep the nutcrackers and the santas actually wage war because there are that many.  And although it sound like it could be a cluttered mess, anyone who has seen my pictures from past years knows it's definitely not.  My Mom creates art with decorations.

The best part about this wondrous land is the time I get to spend with my family.  Although there is the danger of our butting heads, I love seeing my brothers again.  Now that two of them are married, I get two sisters to be with as well as a nephew that is the BEST!  Plus it's the only time I get to watch football with my Dad!  The house is so full of people and Christmas that it really is enough to drive a person insane.  Lucky for me, I'm already quite bonkers!

So to all of you, thank you for taking the time to catch up with me again this week!  I hope you have a wonderful holiday season with your family and loved ones.  I hope that God showers you with countless blessings.  And don't worry there will be plenty of pictures posted to facebook this week for you to see the madness that I call home.  Until next week...

Merry Christmas!   

That's the reason they're called lessons, because they lessen from day to day.

Well there's less than a week before I go home for Christmas and this week is shaping up to be a very difficult one.  I'll be very honest with you that this post is later than usual because my thoughts and words are very calculated right now.  That being said, I blog to get things out instead of keeping them in so here goes.

The past is a difficult thing to process.  They say hindsight is 20/20 and that's mostly true.  Learning from the past is easy except that sometimes we really don't.  We learn lessons and make mistakes in the past that we hope will not haunt us in the future but they do.  They almost always do.  And on top of that, we think that we learn from the mistakes we make and decide to never hurt the people we love like we may have done in the past but it never fails that we do it again from habit and don't realize it until it's too late.

I'm not a perfect person.  I never have claimed to be and never would.  I love God and follow Jesus but I'm still human.  I try to live my life in a justified way but I make a lot of mistakes.  And I pray to God when I make those mistakes that I can be forgiven and forgive myself and move on.  And even though I learn my lessons of the past, I'm only human when I make mistakes again because the situations look different but at the core are the same.

I really don't know what to say without saying too much other than the past is the past.  And I'm deciding today to let it go.  In the style of Elsa, I am letting it go because I have to.  I am ridding myself of my negative past and starting fresh with a new, positive outlook.  I am forgiving those who have wronged me whether they forgive me or not.  I am letting go of my pride and choosing instead to love because happiness is the ultimate importance.  I can't speak for everyone but I can make this choice for myself.

So I am deciding today to learn from the lessons of my past and not let them lessen from day to day.  Otherwise, what am I really doing instead of going around in a circle that leads to no where but unhappiness.  

See you next week!
Love, Kimberly

Begin at the beginning and go on till you come to the end: then stop.

I love that you can see something or in this instance read something over and over again then one day it jumps out at you like it's completely new.  That's what this quote did to me today...as they most always do when I go to write.

As I've said before, I'm a slightly impatient person so the idea of waiting for something to happen instead of when I'm ready for it to happen is soooooo frustrating to me.  But I'm getting better, I hope!  So I've spent this morning writing emails and planning stuff for Beachwood Drive.  By now you know that is the film that my friend and I will be campaigning for in February, then filming around May.  But we are still in the development stage and all I can think is how I wish this was all done and we were filming.  It would be so much more fun to be on set, acting and creating instead of sending out emails and trying to build my team.

But you can't just jump into the middle of anything, now can you?  Not if you ever want to be successful.  Plus everything is a lesson.  So if I'm to learn how to do this and be successful at it, I have to start at the beginning and work my way through the grunt work so I can get to the fun part later.  

Of course once I get there, I won't be stopping.  It will only push me to do it again and that's the ultimate goal for me.  If I can make films on my own for the rest of my life, I'd be so happy.  

I just love it when a lesson like that smacks you in the face.  So the next time you're feeling like something isn't progressing the way you want, or that you're overwhelmed because road ahead of you seems so long, remember that you always have to start at the beginning before you can get to the end.  

Enjoy the journeys because that is where we learn the lessons!

Love you!

Kimberly

"If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense..."

If I had a world of my own, every day would be Christmas time! Yes, I’m one of those people.  I’m so happy that it’s finally December.  I love this time of year when the weather gets cold, there’s pumpkin spice everything and all of the streets are decorated for the holidays!  Obviously my world would make no sense because you can’t have snowmen year round…or can you??  

I just really love the Christmas season and not just because we get to give each other presents, or everyone runs themselves further in to debt, myself included.  I love it because it’s a time for friends and family.  It’s the time of year where you can relax and enjoy those around you and not worry about all the stress of life that the year has put on you. 

I looooooove the decorations too.  It’s so amazing to see people put their heart and soul into creating beautiful art that they don’t get to make the rest of the year.  I am most definitely my mother’s daughter because I go all out for Christmas!  It’s so nostalgic for me to be surrounded by Christmas decorations during this month and I love it!  I wish I could have it year round!  In fact we have discussed having a Christmas house and a non-Christmas house all year round so we could move back and forth between the two whenever we wanted :)  “We” being my mom and I!  But of course that would be silly…or amazing.   And I’m sure eventually I would appreciate the season a lot less if it were around all year. 

But let’s not forget what we’re really celebrating.  God’s son, our Savior Jesus Christ was born on Christmas so that we could be forgiven of our sins.  I can’t even imagine the amount of love that would have to be felt to send your only son as a savior.  So remember to be thankful for the blessings you have, even if they’re not the blessings you want.  Love each other this season, and by each other I mean everyone, even people you don’t know.  I read a great quote that said “always be kind because every man is fighting a battle that you know nothing about.”  Let’s think less of ourselves this season, stop worrying about what you are entitled to and think about how you can be a blessing to others.  It feels a lot better to give to others than it does to receive.

Merry Christmas!

Curiouser and Curiouser

Well as you may have noticed, I am veeeeery late to getting this week out.  I promise with good reason.  Sunday I gave myself whiplash...don't ask, so yesterday I was stuck in bed not being able to move then this morning the alternator in my car went out.  SO needless to say this week has been curiouser and curiouser!  But on with the show!

It's Thanksgiving!  And I am so thankful for so many things in my life!  But instead of making this blog about all of the things that are going right in my life, I'm going to tell you why I'm so thankful for all of the things that are going wrong... Where to begin...

I'm thankful for my job.  I hate my job.  I actually really like the company I work for but I detest my job.  I love the people I work with but let's break it down here.  My job consists of working harder than what my pay should require to end up begging people for money in the end because I survive off of tips.  But I'm thankful for this job.  I'm thankful because if I were working a job where I was making a comfortable wage, I would have no motivation to work hard to move my acting career forward.  And I am so motivated to succeed!  So I am thankful.

I'm thankful for my butt.  I hate my butt!  But I'm so thankful for it because no matter what I do it gets attention.  And not just from people wanting to hit on me but from people who genuinely want to compliment me.  It's so big it actually makes my waist look even smaller.  People tell me every day how beautiful my figure is and I'm thankful that it makes me stand out...but I hate it.  

I'm thankful for my friends.  Most of the time they don't want to talk to me because I'm loud and I'm very open about my feelings.  For some reason or another they stick around and I love them so much for their love and support.

I'm thankful for my family.  I love my parents for raising me not to be a perfectionist but to be proud of myself and to live a life that I can be proud of.  This is the end has made me a perfectionist which causes me to be obsessive but at least I care enough to do things right.  And my brothers suck!  They're such perfect examples of what men should be and how to live that they make me so sick and so proud at the same time.  I love them so much but can't measure up to them.

And I'm thankful for you!  You are reading this blog about me and my life when you could be doing something else waaaaay more exciting.  You have no idea what it is to know that someone else cares about your life and wants to know more about you.  I live to entertain people and I am so thankful that you are so willing to let me entertain you, whether in my weekly blogs or on your tv screen.  So thank you so much for letting me do what I do!

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving!

Kimberly

"How long is forever?" Alice asked. The white rabbit replied, "Sometimes just a second."

This week has been a very eventful one for me and Friday this quote jumped out at me to write about.  Everyone always says time flies or where did the time go but it does seriously get lost faster than we plan.  

I lost a friend from High School this week.  I don't know if he thought I considered him a friend or not but he was definitely a source of fondness from the past.  He will forever be our Super Sophomore.  And it really shook me because no matter how much you think you understand life, you still think that everyone around you is going to live forever.  And for someone to be gone so soon, well I just wasn't ready.  And I don't think I'm handling it very well.  So for those of you really close to me, get ready to be smothered with love because that's what I do.  I lash out in love!

I also finally ran my Avengers half marathon this week.  Today my legs are fighting with me to even function.  But I felt like this day would never come when I signed up for it.  It seemed like forever away but the time and training went by so fast!  I'm excited that it's over but now I'm definitely anxious for the next thing.  I always need something next to work towards.  I guess I technically already have the next thing to focus my time on...our feature film Beachwood Drive.  And thinking about how fast February is going to get here is both exciting and frightening!  

So I'll wrap this up by saying, I'm not much of a procrastinator but I am being conscious of when I do procrastinate in order to avoid it.  Time is so precious and it really does need to be spent well.  Life is so short and it's so important to make the best of every moment.  So live, laugh, love...that's the saying right?  I have some movie planning to get going on!  I hope you have some big plans for yourself too!

Check out my new video blog with my friend Ben Davies.  We should be posting new videos weekly! 
Ben & Kim Faith in Entertainment

And please keep the Beaty family from Huntsville,TX in your hearts and prayers!  
Until next week...love you!!

Every adventure requires a first step.

I always think that I like adventures more than I actually do.  In fact the idea of an adventure gives me a little bit of anxiety because I'm very type A and like to have all the facts before jumping into anything I do.  So really I'm not an adventurous person at all, although I'm getting better at it.

I do like the outcome of adventures, the stories, the experiences, etc.  My problem is that I'm such a planner!  I like planning things out and knowing how things will turn out in the end so I can be prepared.  But planning something out kind of takes away from it being an adventure.  And let's be honest, no matter how much you plan, there will always be something that doesn't go exactly how you thought it would.  

And on top of that, the more you try to plan an adventure, the more you come across potential problems that could keep you from having the adventure!  So the more you try to avoid these issues, the less and less exciting the adventure becomes making it less likely to ever happen!  If you spend too much time planning, you'll never take the first step.

This year I've had quite a few adventures and next year I know there will be a lot more.  I can honestly say that I've pushed myself to do more this year than I ever thought I'd be capable of doing.  Don't get me wrong, I attribute that to some really great people that helped me and I'm grateful for them.  And I know next year I will be able to do even more, we will be able to do even more!  I like that I'm learning to let go of plans and just let things around me and people around me fall into place.  Unfortunately they don't always fall where I'd like them to and I guess not everyone is going to be willing to come along with me for every adventure I'll take.  Does that mean I'm supposed to give up these adventures?  Nope!  Not all of my adventures will be the same as everyone else's. 

But why should I worry when I'm never the one in control anyway?  I need to be more willing to follow my heart and grab opportunities when they come my way instead of worrying about what could go wrong.  I mean, when God provides, who am I to question it?  Because what could go wrong could go completely right!  An how exciting is that?!  So I'm taking first steps...a lot of them!  And I hope for your sake that you do too...  :)