This is one of my favorite quotes from Alice, mostly because it reminds me that goals are important. There's a reason people say Los Angeles is full of Lost Angels. People come here to follow their dreams but once they get here, they don't know where to go to make them come true. I'll admit it isn't easy but I was blessed with really great friends when I moved out here and it has helped a lot!
The sad thing is, Los Angeles is a city where it's easy to coast through life. I mean, the weather is pretty great 90% of the year, the beach is only at most an hour away, not to mention Disneyland is just right down the 5. So what if I never make it or ever book a movie role, right? I live in Los Angeles! Wrong.
We survive here, we don't live. It was interesting yesterday in church the speaker (I say speaker because the preacher was in New York for an engagement) said to us, we are here to save a city. I had honestly never thought of this as my path but it really struck a chord with me. I mean honestly, why would anyone in their right mind move to LA? The rent is outrageous, as well as the gas prices. The cost of living is 2-3 times anywhere else plus the smog and, oh yeah, the EARTHQUAKES! Why would any intelligent person move here unless it was for a purpose? Interesting.
Another thing happened that hit hard. I usually try to write this blog on Sunday night or Monday morning and today I woke up late. Yeah, I know. But at work today, I was told that Robin Williams died. And not just died, but committed suicide. As an actor that is serious about my craft and my colleagues, this paralyzed me. Why? I didn't know him personally so why was I so affected? Because this is so common out here. People work so hard to achieve wealth and success but this city can make you feel so alone and so lost. And for those that don't achieve the success, you're still lost but in paradise. There is such a need out here for people, REAL people that feel and connect and love; people to really help the lost. I don't know why he took his life but I know, it's heart breaking and it happens more than it should here.
Now on that note, anyone that knows me can tell you that I love a lot. I can't tell you how many people that I have opened my heart to and let in just for them to feel safe. Most of the time they have turned on me, pushed me away or even rejected me yet I continue to do it. I guess you could say that I really need to get the hint and learn the lesson but for me, I would much rather suffer than to know someone is going through life without feeling loved. I guess that's the one thing from the bible that I don't have to focus on is loving others. I got that covered, even if it's not always reciprocated.
I don't know, I think I strayed a little from my original topic. It's easy to lose focus on your goals when you live in paradise but it's also easy to get lost. I'm so sorry that we lost such a great actor today but I hope that others will find the paths they're meant to take. I remember the saying that is painted on the wall in my parents' house "live well, love much, laugh often." I don't know where the quote originally came from but I can say I plan to. I just might love a little more than I should :)
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