Who Are You?

I've honestly not been asked this question as many times as you'd think but when it's asked, it's usually not in a positive way.  Think about it, the difference between "what's your name" and "who are you" is pretty big.  The latter is almost a request to validate your presence and prove your importance in a given situation.  And this brings me to my next topic about Los Angeles.

I actually had a teacher say once that the streets and the sidewalks of LA actually whispered these words to people.  And in a way it's true.  You really do wonder day in and day out what your purpose is in this city and if you're even supposed to be here.  So many people in this city are so much more important than me; who am I to be here?  Life here is definitely not unbearable but it's also not easy.

The funny thing is, I've come to notice this question a lot less in my life. But for some reason, it jumped in yesterday in a big way and I think it was answered best with the words of Matthew West.  Let me set up the situation for you...The past couple of weeks I have been working with a friend to produce a feature film. Yes, I mean a big one, like the ones you see in the movie theaters.  Me!  I am doing this!  But it's hard.  Like really hard.  You have to talk to a lot of people and you have to find money from people and it's just HARD.  You have to do a lot of proving to others who you are and validating why you are doing this.

So a lot of negativity has been creeping in and I've been wondering if I even should be doing this.  I've looked it over and prayed about it and it seems to stand in my mind and my heart that this is actually the path I'm supposed to take.  It hit me yesterday when the question came to mind, who am I to do something like this?  I noticed immediately that this was not one of my thoughts.  Call it what you want but I know what it's like to be attacked when your faith is renewed and strengthened.  That's what was happening.  And I answered that question.  I am a "child of the one true king."  And last time I checked "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13

Now am I saying that Jesus is telling me to take this particular script and that it is God's will that I make this film, no.  But what I am saying is that for once, I have a true understanding that God is my foundation.  He gives me the strength to do things that would seem impossible.  He knows my heart and has given me my dreams.  I know that I can do this and I know who I am.  And it's pretty freaking exciting!